I not wanted this blog to turn into the ‘I Am Cait’ blog, as for me personally there are other things I’d prefer to write about & for me personally ‘I Am Cait’ isn’t exactly representative of the lives of average trans women & I’m pretty sure somewhere on the interwebs a trans fangirl has already set up a blog which follows every aspect of the show & well I just wouldn’t be able to compete with such dedication even if I wanted to.
However I’m still watching ‘I Am Cait’ how cringeworthy & atrocious I might think it is at times & there’s still happenings which occur in the show that I feel I must write about.
I particularly detested the third episode of ‘I Am Cait, the first 5 to 10 minutes were fine where Caitlyn Jenner, Candis Cayne, Jenny Boylan & two other trans activists had travelled to a charitable project in San Francisco which helps trans women who have had to resort to sex work to support themselves & Caitlyn Jenner did seem genuinely moved by the accounts she heard of some of the trans women who the charity helps, but it was the rest of the episode which was atrocious where Caitlyn, Candis & entourage of trans women gallivant around the Napa Valley riding bikes, roller-skate, taking a dip in the pool & doing a spot of wine tasting. I know even trans activists are entitled to take time off, but it’s like one moment Caitlyn Jenner & co are all choked up about trans women in desperate situations & the next it’s oh fuck them we are off on an ostentatious jaunt.
Despite many reviews saying what a mess ‘I Am Cait’ happens to be & how atrocious I personally reckon the show to be at times, there was a bit in the fourth episode which very much resonated with me in my own journey as a trans woman & it came courtesy of Kate Bornstein. Essentially Kate Bornstein said that for years the fear of being seen as a freak kept her back from transitioning & how she finally managed to combat this fear by revelling in being freak & that she now owns the realm of freakdom & I’ve had a very similar experience in that regards. The fear of being seen as a freak & not being capable of living up to the woman I envisaged myself being kept me from transitioning & it was only when I realised I’m the woman I’m not the woman I dreamt of being that I finally made a successful transition, I’d not say I revel in being any kind of freak but I certainly revel in being something of a nonconformist & unique individual.
I can understand Caitlyn Jenner not wanting to be seen as a freak & I can empathise with her wanting to be seen as an ordinary woman, but for fucks sake, considering the kind of public profile Caitlyn has & possibly will continue to have, me thinks dream on Caitlyn if she ever thinks she’s ever going to pass in society as an ordinary woman, I mean she’s chauffeured around in a blacked out SUV due to the gaze of the paparazzi following her everywhere etc.
I will continue to watch ‘I Am Cait’ so long as it airs & I’m not wanting the show to be axed not matter how shite I personally might think it as times, because there’s still stuff in the show which is true for the vast majority of trans women & short segments such as the one where Cait met Kate. Maybe more input into the show from Kate Bornstein could improve the show, well it would improve the show in my opinion being as I’m something of a fan of Kate & much of what she has to say, in fact fuck it, my suggestion in conclusion is some cable TV network should give Kate Bornstein her own show because it would get viewers on the strength that Kate has opinions that will get a reaction but not opinions that are meant to get a reaction for the sake of getting a reaction.